Earlier this week I was a guest blogger in Rachel Britton’s #BeBoldGirl series…
BOLD ENOUGH TO NEED HELP
Thank you Rachel for inviting me back to your #BeBoldGirl series!
I previously shared about stepping away from full time employment. The past 18 months has certainly been a journey and I invite you to join me as I share just a glimpse of it.
I was actually newly-pregnant at the time of my previous post, so the Lord had much more in mind when He nudged me away from my office job! Much more! Moving for my husband’s job at 4 months pregnant I found myself in a strange town where I knew no one. It was time to be bold! I discovered a Women’s Bible study at the church we visited and in doing so found myself walking into a room of 100+ strangers with shaky knees and a baby kicking my ribs! Praise the Lord for boldness for He met me in my need and I was placed in a small group that included 2 other pregnant women around my age.
Those girls have held my hand the past year as we have faced a crazy set of circumstances leading to 4 moves, uncertainty, confusion, and all in Ezra’s first 6 months.
Our fourth move was into our first home which we purchased in December. We are beginning to feel settled; however, January was one of the hardest and darkest months I have faced.
Friends, it is hard for me to share, but I had been in survival mode and you can only keep that up for so long. I crashed. All the emotions and fatigue I had kept “under control” came bursting forth sending me in a downward spiral, leaving me bereft of energy, purpose, and also seeking my identity.
Opening up to a couple of friends and finally my doctor I heard the words I had been avoiding — postpartum depression. They were, however, the words I needed to hear.